Benji's life

Surprised

2011-04-21T02:03:00.000-07:00

I got my results back from prof comm. Surprising it's a B+, considering that i screwed up for most of my presentation. This reconfirms me the fact that not many people are as critical as me around. Screwing up is okay as long as you learn from it.

Sadly but true, I have benn nothing but critical with myself and other people around me, if I learn to be less critical, people would be less critical of me and life would be happier and I would also stop procrastination more!

Life might be great or bad, it only depends on how you see it. For all my life, I have taken the negative approach, that's why I did many things I regretted. Now I am going to take the positive approach and try to maintain it, it might be uncomfortable at first but hey persistence!!!!!

Confused!

2011-04-20T01:26:00.000-07:00

Guess what, i screwed up at my presentation for prof comm today... I dont know what happened but the words just didnt get into me.. Guess I was really nervous. But i seriously practiced like 3 hours before,...... Was it something I did wrong? Or was it really the nerves... I just couldnt figure it out. I feel like a living time bomb(as my dad says), everytime things are going well I will kind of like do something which would take me back to the original position or even a few steps back.

Well at least now I don't feel beat up or emo about such stuffs already, tt's a positive sign. At least I am able to control my emotions and also learn from my mistakes. Well off to FYP report.... It sucks but i have to complete it by tml. Well I am glad someone's there for me and offer me help and support during my darkest days :)

Now enough of blogging therapy, back to FYP report!!!!!!!! ONE MORE DAY FTW!!!!

Nostalgic

2011-04-15T09:03:00.000-07:00

I am chilling out in my room tonight... Everything feels great.... I got a little empowerment and inspiration while reading the manga Good Ending...

The storyline is about love/life. The inspirational part was when one of the main characters found her boyfriend cheating on her and was too afraid to ask him about it. Her boyfriend took her for granted as he knew she was infatuated with him. In the end, she was encouraged by her admirer to stand up for herself and she gave him one tight slap and broke up with him.

This story is so damn cliche and happens in movies many times, but the meaning is deep. It teaches us to cherish ourselves. By cherishing yourself, people will be attracted to you automatically. The phenomenon is something which I see many times but I cant explain why it happens. But as Whitney Houston sings, the greatest love of all is really loving yourself. After learning to love yourself are you then able to spread the love to others

Catch up with old friends

2011-04-15T06:31:00.000-07:00

Today was a day i went for my American visa interview. which was obviously a breeze cause they love Singaporeans. It's a great experience trying to make new friends and also interact with new people.

But with it comes a downside i guess, i sense lots of politics on coming back i am keeping optimistic that I am able to be handle everything as I am grown up and no longer the old naive kinda guy.

Did some catch up with Kok Wee and Alex and found out how their mentally changed over the years. I am not going to say how, they say I am still the same me, abit blur and stuff which i guess i am comfortable in portraying myself that way.

I rather be seen as someone not knowing anything and be stupid than someone who is very deep intellectual and emo.... haha.

Back to work, I have like 20+ more pages for my FYP report to be completed!!! PLEASE wish me luck!!

FYP troubles

2011-04-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

FYP gotten me into a dilemna, I am not sure whether I should start doing. A part of me feels I have done enough to pass, but a scared side of me felt I have not implemented enough and have to concentrate on my JAVA code.

But after much thoughts about it and a chillout watching the sanctum, I decided to work on my report first. Scheduled to complete it on Saturday. The additional time given to me could be try to solved it but if all else fail, I would have no choice but to abandon it. I seriously hope I wont have to do that haha

Random Thoughts

2011-04-13T08:20:00.000-07:00

Perhaps i should move to twitter where it is noisy there, facebook is full of quiet people and when u start spamming your own status, you become a facebook whore and so that's what my good friend kok says.... yeah maybe i will be more active in my twitter when i start working!!!

Meeting with project mates and thoughs about success

2011-04-12T22:36:00.000-07:00

Today, Nick, Hongjing and I have a meeting on our Prof comm presentation. Nick did a wonderful job in preparing for the prof comm powerpoint and also coordinated us in our project. I feel that he is someone who would have a lot of leadership roles to play in the near future. As we were preparing for it, we talk alot of about life and i seriously have alot of things to learn from him.

One thing that struck my mind was that all the self-help books I read in the past painted a picture or rather misled me that with strong passion, you would be able to reach your goals in life. But in reality, I found out today is strong passion is a double-edge sword that might turn and bite u when things does not go well.

What we should equip ourselves is rather a moderate amount of 'sustainable' passion to carry us to success. The word 'sustainable' has a deep meaning to it, it means to be resilent to outside influence, am able to sustain it even on a bad day and never lose sight of your focus. I finally realise the reason why i keep procrastinating was a paint a too beautiful picture in my mind and it comes back to bite me by draining my energy.

So to first start off the day is too mildly empower yourself with the energy required and sustain it through out the day. This I really have to learn to channel my energy at all the right places and do it skillfully. If i train myself everyday, Success would be in my reach soon!!!

BGC disaster or miracle?

2011-04-12T09:54:00.000-07:00

Well i got all prepared for my interview away. Thinking of all the right things to say and everything. I was confident of my first part of the interview until the lady told me that it was pure commission-based. I was totally shocked, it didn't occur to my mind before it was a 100% sales job and to be honest I seriously don't have a good track record for sales.

What was I suppose to do? Accept the job or reject it. After thinking through and asking my friends for advice, I was thinking what the heck just try it for 3-4 months and let's see how it goes. At least it's better than doing nothing or being stuck at an engineer job

But thinking about it, sales is really very seductive, despite not being successful many times, i still go back to the same route..... I wonder why?

Doomsday in 10

2011-04-11T02:38:00.000-07:00

I am seriously overwhelmed this week. Next week onwards I have an embedded system test which i have never touched it on tuesday, a prof comm presentation on wednesday and handing up my final report on thursday!!!! There's so many uncertainties this period and it is killing me badly!!! No more slacking and time to get my sloth ass to work!

ITKZ fever

2011-04-10T18:43:00.001-07:00

I am like having this fever since 3 days ago... and it's all because of that stupid dream... Damn it... it's draining my energy a little by little and now it's a crucial time for me as I have to complete my FYP asap. This weekend felt like months as i struggled to find words to complete my 40 page report. I found an easy way out buy inputting loads of pictures but i guess that might not be enough.

OK enough of blog therapy... It felt abit better now let's get back to work!!!!!

Someone saved me!!!

2011-04-10T07:04:00.000-07:00

This seriously sucks.... I keep asking myself why it ends this way... Not that I am really sad or anything, perhaps maybe I am a little too greedy on my part... I guess there serious are no such things as happily ever after. Those only happens in fairytale... I guess i should stop my fantasizing about my ideal world and come back to reality

Hopefully I would just persevere on and end up victorious. Wow and blogging about stuff really makes my mood better.....

Pink

2011-04-09T20:03:00.000-07:00

I love this lady she has the attitude and confidence I seriously wished I had and this video has alot of meaning to me!!

Let go and let live

2011-04-09T19:47:00.000-07:00

This is always a phrase which is easy to say, hard to accomplish. They say the most important thing in the world is your time and you would find it very fulfilling if you are very generous with your time with people, it makes better relationships, friendships and even find you good contacts and business partners. For me however, it's something that i am always selfish in. I always needed time to slack be alone but how long can this last? I eventually need to spend more time with friends, socializing even though i do not have the mood to do so. I guess i would start by being a 'yes' man and see how it goes from there...

Anywayz 1 more day and i have 30 pages to go FML, a NTZ pill would seriously solve anything, only if I was willing to0 pay 800 bucks for it lol

Deadline's coming

2011-04-08T19:11:00.000-07:00

Blog I am sorry for ignoring you a year since last year. For now, I highly doubt anyone would be looking at you, which works better for me as I can be more open in the way i express myself.

I have to work super hard for these two days, really super mad rush as I have to crank out a 40 page report(most probably I might hit 50).If you done your maths correctly, that means 25 pages per day and if I work 10 hours, it would mean 2.5 pages per hour. Thinking about it just makes my head spin and I can't really start my engine.

Putting work aside, I just assess to someone's blog and I realised I really have a soft spot for emo people, as in I really feel for them, perhaps it's like understanding a comrade as some call it. Life would be dull without emotions but sometimes too much would cause you alot of headaches, like sleepless nights, losing focus on your work and I am trying to change that.

I can go on and on about life but I guess that's it for now and I leave it so I can visit you another time blog!!!

Making the right decisions

2010-03-10T22:58:00.000-08:00

I realise i suck at making the right decisions. Good friends or more than friends... It's hard to choose. I know tt sometimes u have to take the risk but sometimes the risk will make u lose what is truly more important than what u will gain. Guess life isnt really such an easy game to play after all. Even though the continues of it is almost unlimited, but each chapter only gives u one chance to make the decision. I always thought i am good at reading people but when it comes to myself there are too much stakes involved to make the correct read on things.. argh FML!

EMo shits

2009-12-14T07:19:00.001-08:00

I thought that pouring my heart out to a person would be the best gift... but guess i was wrong about it....

2009-12-13T19:48:00.000-08:00

I feel cheated..... Guess i was manipulated by others once again zzzzzzzz

2009-10-10T07:32:00.000-07:00

Today I saw somebody
Who looked just like you
He walked like you do
I thought it was you
As he turned the corner
I called out your name
I felt so ashamed
When it wasn't you
Wasn't you

You are everything
And everything is you
Oh, you are everything
And everything is you
'Cause you are everything
And everything is you

How can I forget
When each face that I see
Brings back memories
Of being with you
I just can't go on
Living life as I do
Comparing each girl with you
Knowing they just won't do
They're not you

'Cause you are everything
And everything is you
Oh, you are everything
And everything is you
You are everything
And everything is you

Talking crap...

2009-10-06T23:18:00.000-07:00

Is the grass really greener on the other side? Or maybe what awaits me is the blues.....

Choosing routes

2009-10-06T06:51:00.000-07:00

This song really speaks my life now....whether i should follow the path which everyone thinks it is good for me or should I just take a route which I dun see the light on the other side.... Anywayz the singer is damn pro... super soulful

NTU History

2009-10-04T23:29:00.000-07:00

Took a cab to school today as I was lazy to travel from home. It was a dreadful day as i drag my feet to school again(smiling though to make my day feel better.) I learnt something today from the cab driver whom i talked to. I like talking to them as they always share their valuable experiences with me and this one was no exception. He told me about NTU history, about why NTU was closed down for a period of time.
Apparently according to him, NTU was more of chinese idealogy in the past. Thus, it was a common ground for communists thinking. At that time we would all know the Mr. LKY needs the support of the communists to gain support from the people though his way of managing Singapore is more of capitalism(if you guys dunno better go back secondary school social studies to read up more....). And yeah so since like NTU was a common breeding ground for Communists, he had no choice but to shut it down and revamp it to improve the technology and also to change the idealogy and thus now we are studying in the 'revamped' NTU(though i still hate it due to the very rushed syllabus and loads and loads of work.)

Come to think of it, wah still got like 2-3 assignments and 2 test coming up. So screwed. Need to hear some soothing music......

Alone

2009-10-04T01:02:00.001-07:00

People often say, y do I lack confidence, y do i appear so indecisive...... But if they only knew what I have been going through with my life.... I am fighting this war alone and I really dunno what the future holds. Lost and insecure, wonder if this life is worth fighting for. Listening to music is what keeps in alive and think that this world has meaning. Have been actually quite addicted to this song which i heard recently.

West Coast

2009-06-08T11:33:00.000-07:00

Today was sort of a very happy day, but also quite sad cause i was not brave enough..... The words just couldnt come out of my mouth when the right opportunity came about... If only I was more expressive of my feelings.... But it was a fun night and i enjoyed myself alot...

I CAN DO IT

2009-06-06T09:57:00.000-07:00

it's like 56 hours more to doom time..... i can do it and i will not fail the test 3 times.... Loving Vampires :X...

Holiday plans

2009-06-05T09:18:00.000-07:00

1) Complete my M9 and HCI exams
2)Train to get six pecs
3)Earn like 1.5k this hols by doing insurance
4)Improve my social skills
5)Lessen the amount of computer games
6)Meet some hot and pretty girls

Can't wait for monday........

End of DIP

2009-06-04T11:00:00.000-07:00

Wow been so long since i updated my blog sia... i think it is like forever.... Anyways perhaps i should start blogging again.. Just finished DIP, it was a fun and fulfilling experience and i got to know many friends. Now tt it is over, i guess i should just concentrate on passing my M9. Seriously it is no joke failing it 2 times. Guess i should not write too much and continue on my blog... anywayz i was youtubing and found great blues singer(very old fashion sense during tt time zone LOL)... enjoy.

Nice song to be played in the piano

2008-12-20T08:54:00.000-08:00

the guy played damn well..... just tt i dun get the pig in the beginning of the video... it looks ugly LOL

DEAD blog?

2008-12-14T12:30:00.000-08:00

IT's been like months since i touched this blog,and who knows,my next entry might be years later.... This almost marks the end of another year and i guess i have to put up the 10 most regrets of my life:
1) For not confessing to a girl I like and she got attached.
2) For dotaing so much and ignoring my social life
3) For judging people too much till i lose people who i really treasure
4) For doing things on impulse instead of using my logical mind to think things through
5) For the times I am very pissed with my parents for disturbing me by asking funny questions when i am doing my thing(dota tt is haha)
6) For missing my exams, MEDIA IN AMERICA last sem
7) For not studying harder for all my exams so far..
8) For doubting myself in the most critical situations
9) For having a pride tt is too big for my ability..
10) For not training hard for the marathon and letting 80% of the girls beat me in it

OK here goes and hope next year would be a better year to come and i have learnt a lesson for all my regrets in life haha....

15 km run

2008-10-18T08:12:00.000-07:00

Finally a blog update haha, i was going through a list of things which i wanted to do before blogging. Firstly is studying, but i spent too much time studying today so i think i deserved a good rest. Dotaing, tt's a nono for today as tmr is a 15km run which i think came at a very bad time and i have to sleep. Third is of course sleeping, which i cant cause my bioclock is screwed up at ard 3 am at night and i cant sleep at all. Fourth is going to onemanga to read but i realised i read all of them. Fifth is to go kumby to find the latest anime release, but i realised that i have watched all of the latest episodes so there is nothing to catch up. Lastly i have decided to blog, and so here it is an update :).

Life is great and i enjoying everytime of it working hard haha and i somehow felt that my gyming paid off....... It's really time to stop all these time wasting and procrastination as I believe i am someone who wants to lead a fulfilling life and not slack all the way through. Hope i dun die on tmr's 15 km though haha

music video

2008-10-02T01:30:00.000-07:00

Nice song, meaningful lyrics talking about how u won't get the best of life just thinking about the what if's in life.... Too bad i don't have the mtv music video to go along with it

Friendships

2008-09-28T21:06:00.000-07:00

Before i came to university, i was hoping to know more people always cherish those friendships, however, when i came to university and met up with all kinds of people, i realised that friendships in university is very superficial, perhaps not really exactly superficial but perhaps what i call 'weak'. In the sense that whenever u do something that is out of the ordinary, people will look at you in different light(maybe i indirectly behave like this too sometimes). It is really very funny the way the world works, in secondary school and jc i make less friends than in university, however, my secondary friends and jc friends always share weal and woe with us. However, in university, perhaps even a few words or actions can just ruin a friendship just like tt. Anywayz, tt's how i see life in university, not that i am hating it but i guess as long as i stay optimistic about it and will try to make the best out of the friendships i obtained in uni :)..... Actually wanted to post a video of plain white T's song called "What IF" but school network seriously too slow le so next time ba when i get home haha

2008-09-14T10:53:00.000-07:00

Very nice song:) enjoy....

Zodiac signs(so true!!!)

2008-09-14T10:31:00.000-07:00

VIRGO the Virgin

Virgo and Independence:Virgo is a very independent zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves. It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives. They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves.

Virgo and Friendship:People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.

Virgo and Business:Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes them good investigators and researchers. They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators. Virgos are very good at problem solving, this is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order. They are rational thinkers and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation. Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order.

Virgo Temperament:Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.

Virgo Deep Inside:They need to be organized in their mind, sometimes all their energy is taken from organizing their mind that they have a difficult time organizing their surroundings. They easily look too deep into an issue and over analyze what they percept. Virgo is ambitious and strives to always know more and have more. This is in their eternal quest to bring order to chaos. Even if order is obtained from an outsiders' point of view, Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced. Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown. They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything. They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.

Virgo in a Nutshell:Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.

What it's like to date a Virgo Man:The Virgo man has a cool exterior with a sensitive interior. He has tremendous respect for a woman and will treat her like and equal. He likes woman who stir his emotions because he is reluctant to express his own emotions, which he tries and this often causes conflict not just inside himself, but it spills out into the relationship. This man takes patience and understanding. He will not get extremely close so do not try to enter his psyche and become closely entangled, this will make him feel threatened. He needs a classy woman who is not impulsive or unconventional. He leads a predictable life and a predictable woman will make him feel safe. He is perfect for the down to earth, conventional woman. He won't be romantic and sweep you off your feet, but he will be by your side and be very loyal. This man's sensuality comes out with time. For the woman who wants a stable, solid relationship with a visible, smooth sailing future is perfect for the Virgo man.

Sex With Virgo:As time progresses, sex with Virgo becomes more and more sensual. These are not the type of people who will engage in a one night stand, they are too reserved and prudish for that. Expect sex to be direct and straightforward, no fancy moves, places or games. Virgo is not a highly sexed zodiac sign and does not place much importance on it, if anything they consider sex to be gross and dirty. Once a relationship is solid, Virgo is willing to experiment a little bit with techniques and foreplay but like everything else involving a Virgo, it takes time to develop once all the advantages and disadvantages have been thoroughly weighed out.

Virgo most Compatible with: Scorpio, Taurus, Capricorn, CancerWorst Match for Virgo: Aquarius

The more i read it the more i think it is like so true....... though the sex part isn't true.... I always like to try new things LOL.... anywayz, i think whateva thing tt describes me on top is like 90% true(well u can ignore the sex segment). Wow it's hard to find something so spot on for a long time :).

Assignment day

2008-09-09T07:21:00.000-07:00

Today is a very tiring day.... tech com marketing projects and plus my visual comm assisgnment... haha totally screwed up my marketing project as we did not do what the prof expected us to do..... Anywayz after that went to eat dinner with daniel jueying ruifang & guizhi...After that we went to take to the nearby cemetery and take our photoshoot.... When we were halfway there, it rained :( damn sianz la....So we wentback to take our camera and went back....After that bad things happened one after another... while we were taking the pics halfway, the camaera went out of battery and we have to asked some malays nearby to lend us the power plug... Luckily we finished the project without and cock ups and thanks to daniel ruifang , jueying and guizhi for every thing now i got something to hand up LOL

Software Engineering

2008-09-07T20:16:00.000-07:00

WOOO... i just screwed up my software engineering test!!! It was to be expected anyways... now working hard on my marketing project and my phototaking later..... Tml will be a better day man(IT BETTER BE...)

Jef's wedding

2008-09-07T11:16:00.000-07:00

Woah Jef's finally tied the nuptial knot. It was a busy and fulfilling day. Even though we don't meet up much due to our busy schedules, i was kind of honoured to be one of the brothers of the wedding. Being a brother, i creid while eating hot chilli stuff, drive and explore the streets of orchard and still got lost .... Anywayz the wedding was held in Gallery Hotel and i was made the IT guy once again(not that i mind too as my job quite slack compared with the job at St JAmes.) Definitely a very entertaining day, it was not the program that fasinated me, but actually the effort that Jef and his wife Fiona put in this wedding, they made their own personal cartoon which showcased how they met each other and eventually got together. The cameraman was great too by making such a good 6 minutes video in the span of 3 hours(he even did better than my video which i did for like 30 odd hours). Anywayz the wedding has ended and i wish them a happy marriage with the years ahead. And i think i will post photos of the wedding as soon as Yiting and Jef sends me the photos... NOw back to studying my boring and troublesome software engineering and continuing on my marketing project, though life is busy, i love every moment of it instead of slacking off it at home :)

Hell week

2008-09-03T07:43:00.000-07:00

OMGWTFBBQ!!!!! this is like the worse week ever since school reopen. I have a marketing presentation, a software engineering test, technical comm outline, and a visual comms assignment and plus a wedding lol what luck!!!! Anywayz, i was kind of tired and happy as i finally got to work on something, instead of slacking my life away and stuff. I kind of miss mixing around with hall 13 people but i guess it's time to move on and get used to life without them(cause most prob i dun think i would ever get a hall LOL.) Anywayz i have to shoutout for dear Serena, hope for all the best for you and please bring back good news. Me CL Joanne are counting on you to start the ball rolling LOL.... Ciaoz

Back after one month

2008-08-31T21:46:00.000-07:00

Wow, i realised i did not blog for one month plus. Maybe it's because i am very busy with union camp, hall camp and other stuffs. But this month have been full of ups and downs for me, i realised i made alot of new friends in the process and of course quitted my addiction to dota. I decided not to list my downs as people might say my blog very emo and stuff LOL!!! Anywayz today very touched, the pageant juniors suddenly gave me espirit vouchers for my birthday. As in though i dun interact with them much:). Really made my day i guess. Anywayz, i guess i have to buck up for all my assignments and stuff already this week is hell for me...... my friend's wedding, a software engineering test and a visual communications lecture WOO!!! LIFE IS GREAT WHEN I AM THAT BUSY HAHA..

Photoshoot

2008-07-30T07:16:00.000-07:00

Today i went with the pageant committee to see the photo shoot of the contestants. It was an eye opener as when i saw the pictures which they took. They looked so much more prettier for the girls and more handsome for the guys. Grace looks damn pretty(I think Titans have a good chance of winning queen this year again.) Our batch were commenting why our photoshoot was not as good as what they had this year. Halfway during the shoot, me Yiting, Chengyun, Melissa and Darren decided to take a breather and walked to Heeren while looking for the prizes for the lucky draw. However, halfway there, we decided to go to the place last year in which we had our photoshoot and we started posing with darren taking all the photos. It was super entertaining. As the whole day was over, while i was on the way home, it suddenly dawned on me how much time i wasted while indulging in my computer games and locking myself at home. It still hurts after i realised what i lost out and how much i wish i could turn back time but oh well dreaming doesnt really help tt much does it?

Random stuffs

2008-07-07T09:12:00.000-07:00

Dear blog, it keeps hurting from time to time but i will manage. Anywayz, i kind of feel anti-social these few days. My friends are like one by one enjoying themselves so much getting happy during these holidays, i feel like i am kind of lagging behind. Maybe it's due to all the dota and stuff which leave me no sense of accomplishments by the end of the day(Oh well,i am trying the best i can to quit haha.)
Work sux as there are more and more things to do each day. Lucky i got to destress by going the the cinema watching the show called "Deception" , kind of interesting plot and 'nice' scenes . So much better than wild rose or wild orchid to be precise LOL, the onli thing is the ending not very convincing for me.
Anyways, the quote of the day which i feel is very meaningful when i was watching a show: "Life is short so always speak up on how you feel when you have the chance."
I feel that quarrels always happend when people don't speak up and people don't listen so speaking up is like half the chance the quarrel won't happen. Oh well tt's Benji's theory anywayz so it is pretty accurate

Life goes one

2008-07-03T06:14:00.000-07:00

Wow it has been like one month plus since i seriously update my blog. Guess this time i have like been wasting my time away.... Finally back from the trip in Thailand. Had a very good shopping trip, and memorable experiences like watching wild orchid, playing geisha with the stupid fan of ours that we bought due to the hot weather and those seafood and other stuff. Overall it was a good trip i should say as everyone was quite ok with almost everything. When i got back to singapore i just could not find the mood to work. Work have been piling up and yet i was like one hour late for the first day of work and 40 minutes for the second day of work after tt vacation. luckily they were kind enough to pretend nothing has happen. Now i am really looking forward to my union camp as i just have a feeling it is going to be very enjoyable

Thailand

2008-06-25T13:51:00.000-07:00

Dear blog, finally a long break from work... I am now at Budget terminal slacking away while waiting for my 6 pm flight... Hope i dun end up broke when i come back singapore....... Will update more when i come back and when i find the time to do so and adjust back my social life once again

First day of work

2008-05-21T06:40:00.000-07:00

Finally i started my first day of work.... But apparently it was a bad day for me as well. Due to the sudden change in my bio clock, i started sneezing the whole day in the office and it hampered my concentration in doing things. Lunch in raffles place was a nightmare, i was trying to find an ideal place to eat but wherever i went, it was either full house, or too expensive. And the place was a sauna especially when u are in long sleeve and long pants wow, i was dripping all the time when i ate. Thank god my boss is good letting me off earlier and asking me to take my time to do my work(Since it was my first day of work i tot i can impress her by piaing abit LOL). The job is not bad in terms that it is quite slack but i am quite sad cause i dont think i can learn much by doing the things i did today. Anywayz it is just 2 more days before my job assignment ends and i have to worry about my driving test next monday. This holiday is getting more fruitful day by day woohoo..

Finally I am working tmr

2008-05-20T06:49:00.000-07:00

Tmr is my first day of my 2 day job, finally doing something useful in the entire holiday instead of dotaing and watching one piece. While getting the time sheet from the job agency i also went by myself to sign up at other job agencies. There was one particular agency who told me 7/hr was too remote for them and i should expect onli about 5 or 5.50. I was totally shocked. I think my qualifications could have gotten me at least a 6/hr job haha. But i guess i just need the money urgently for all of my overseas trips.
Hopefully there are more fruitful things to do during the holidays and i am really looking forward to go to union senior's camp can meet up with all my torrio mates and have fun together like during the union camp days. I will be meeting my secondary school mates this coming friday for a BBQ and i wanna organise a Sentosa trip for my jc friends but apparently it wont be tt soon.

Wedding actual day

2008-05-10T11:00:00.001-07:00

Today was one of the most fun days in the entire holidays, Though it was very tiring and stuff. My cousin's wedding ceremony was on and i was one of the brothers. It was my first time doing these kinds of stuffs so it was really an eye opener. Lucky i wasn't really tekaned(i siam almost everything haha). Then we saw the procedures they had to go through and stuffs. I learn alot about our Chinese culture and the procedures and rules on what we should and should not do during a wedding. Then came the wedding dinner. It was really weird to see my cousin walk down the aisle with his wife as it was just a few months ago that we met up and we didn't thought about the possibility of him getting married so soon. Then came the bride giving a surprise video for all. That's when i realise how fortunate my cousin having someone who loves him so dearly.. But oh well a new chapter of his life has just started guess i have to carry on with my hols of slacking lol and deciding what i want to do in life

Driving lesson is a pain

2008-05-06T07:15:00.000-07:00

Driving lessons after the exams are kind of pain in the ass. I have to get out of my slack comfort zone and go for an hour lessons almost everyday... Kind of regret choosing school to learn my driving in.... I was very confident of my circuit until today when my instructor suddenly changed and he told me all the errors i made( unlike my previous instructors who did not even bother to say anything or correct me.) However i did learn something new today haha and i guess it was one of the more fun driving experience. I guess people nvr really are satisfied with the amount of time they are given to slack... For me i would even think 3 months of slacking is too little in my eyes. And have to go through another 6 gruesome sems before i graduate and venture into the dog eat dog working environment..... Oh well i already endured my army(which i reckoned was the worst place ever compared to all my friends). Thus, i think i can endure almost anything thrown to me(though i still have to whine to make myself feel better LOL). Guess my resolution this hols is to enjoy myself as much as i can before starting my rusty engines again for the hurdles ahead......

WOes in Exams

2008-04-18T05:23:00.000-07:00

I did something unbelievable today, as in some people might not agree with my point of views but i did not regret doing it, I took mc for one of my core modules Analog Electronics on the day of the exams, it was approaching exam time and i was reading through past year papers and realised i cant even solve most of the questions. Thus i made up my mind to try it again next sem... There are peopel who definitely make comments on how wasteful it is and other stuff but i will admit the only thing i regret was not starting earlier on this crazy subject and this might even affect my mood during the holidays, fancy clearing only 15 AUs when i initially was able to clear 21

FUCKING PISSED WITH MYSELF

2008-04-16T11:18:00.000-07:00

Fuck man this is the first time i ever scold vulgar language in my blog.... Cause i did something so stupid tt anyone see they will sure laugh..... I FUCKING FORGOT THOUGHT MY MEDIA IN AMERICA WAS AT 17TH WHEN IT ACTUALLY WAS ON 16TH..... DAMN AND I WAS BLOODY RUNNING WHEN THEY WERE TAKING THE TEST!!!!! CB DAMN BAD MOOD NOW!!!! NOTHING CAN APPEASE THE ANGER AND HATRED I FEEL INSIDE...... HAIZ HAIZ WTF WTF

Studying

2008-04-16T00:05:00.000-07:00

Argh i need a conducive place to study, there isnt any in hall now....I thought the computer room was a good place to study.. but there are so many friends here making noise and one idiotic girl who plays bejeweled with her sound on... oh well i am typing in front of them now LOL hope they dont peek at my screen....... Anywayz LIFE sux but i am still hanging on.... 4.5 GPA all the way

MARRIAGE

2008-04-13T09:33:00.000-07:00

i am hearing like so much of this word today, first my cousin is getting married, den my roomy started talking to his girlfriend about it(I somehow think they really wanna get married very soon le LOL.) Den my cousin asked me, "Benji, I am getting married very soon, where's ur girlfriend?" Den i was like soon, soon now exams den i will try to find(But tt question really make me sianz diaoz), den my sister was like saying i was too lazy to find one. I guess she was kind of spot on, i didnt try hard enough. The dinner with my cousin was definitely entertaining, i cant wait for his wedding and more importantly, his baby to come out so i can show him/her what a good uncle i am.

4 is a bad number LOL

2008-04-10T11:03:00.000-07:00

I guess i have been studying quite consistently for my maths though i feel kind of worried for my analog electronics and JAVA, hopefully my pace could still be improved some more, through the stress and effort i have put in, i feel a slight happiness at least i am LIKE doing something serious for the whole term since i started out, though it is a little boring but at least it is still worth it.... Argh and i really miss my bed at home, really the best bed, at least i wont get insomnia in tt bed LOL ooooo 20 more days before i can go gym with kim hui, play dota with kok wee jc and wm, go thailand with my hall people, and go tioman for diving with serena jianxiang, fund and XXXX(Due to my wei quan's inability to confirm for tt trip). And so much hall activities and can tekan new freshies omg i think tt time it is like heaven le........ Seriously faster come May 30th!!! i wanna enjoy woohoo

2008-04-08T10:03:00.000-07:00

Haiz kind of feeling sad plus abit emoshit going around me, thinking about the people i have done wrong, and the people that hates me though i kind of roughly know who dislikes me and stuff...... but well some things cant be helped, i guess i have done too much bad things in the past and this caused karma, and i cannot complain when people are biased against me cause i am biased against people in other ways and we are all human..... Ok perhaps i should stop thinking and just conc. on my studies cause that's the most important now...

LUCKY 7

2008-04-08T08:29:00.000-07:00

WEe, exactly one more week to my exams, i dun feel high or stress, maybe i feel kind of numb already, finally managed to complete doing my tuts for maths. Serious really behind time, but i think i really can catch up with the pace i am going now, hopefully i dun backslide or get distracted by other stuffs. Well i think about the things i really want to do after exams, go diving in Tioman, going Bangkok, getting gym membership to keep fit, working,going for FOC camps... Seriously cant help but look forward to it, but i might be naggy but i have to keep reminding myself of the 4.5!!!! and the 2 subjects i really not very confident of it my JAVA and AE hopefully i can do something about it soon:)

Screwed up Canadian Pizza

2008-04-07T08:56:00.000-07:00

Today is a very exciting day,many people keep flocking to Cant A to experience the newly open chain of fast food restaurants. We, being kiasu NTU people, decided to go there and take a look. When we reached there, We were kind of wowed by the subway queue(scary), and the Canadian pizza's queue was quite short. So we decided to go with the shorter queue of course!!(We were kiasu ma and time is precious at this period of time.) Anywayz so we ordered and part of the food came. Oh well mine came early and so i started eating as i am damn famished. After like 10 minutes i hate finish my meal,and i was surprised to realise tt ruifang and daniel still not back yet. So i went to wait with them thinking that they will be served like in a few minutes time. And this bloody screwed up b**** manager keep asking us to wait and wait and wait for a while i think she repeated that 10 times. WE WAITED LIKE ONE HOUR PLUS FOR IT AND SHE STILL ASK US WAIT FOR A WHILE!!!!! Den after that, we got sick of waiting, so i asked the manager to tell us an exact time and to my astonishment, tt bloody B**** actually "Taiji" the blame to one of the staff when she herself forgot tt bloody order. Seriously what kind of manager is tt, guess i will be facing alot of this type of people in the working world next time. And the poor staff got a scolding from us as we had to vent our anger somehow. So the food is served and it is not even up nice. Oh well, at least i felt great making a scene out of it( aids destressing alot haha). Ok back to my studying, i need to finish all my maths tutorial for today, hopefully i can accomplish what i set out to achieve today.

8 day wonder

2008-04-06T09:35:00.000-07:00

Woo, fruitful day of studying i guess, tiring but worth it, i realised during times like this u have to really cut out all ur distractions and ur friends in the process, it sux as at times i really want to talk so much cock until my mouth become suan but there is like no choice,i have a goal to achieve and i dont plan to give up until i reach it, though the level of difficulty is getting harder and harder........ haha surprisingly, i dont even think about dota, and i think it is a good sign as i feel that i am able to quit it soon already......... Anywayz good luck to everyone for their coming exams and hoepfully we can spend more time having fun during May!!!

9 more days

2008-04-05T10:12:00.000-07:00

Omg shit 9 more days to MATHS.... WEEEEEEEE ok i am crazy

Approaching Death

2008-04-04T09:16:00.000-07:00

Doom's day is really coming real soon.... i seriously don't think i am prepared for this test and might even have a high probabilty of failing, i dun wanna feel like someone who does things just on the dot.... I wanna achieve so much more, however there are so many distractions around, everyday i set my goal and plan, the next day when i wake up i would like forget about it or even if i did remember i would be like,okay i would work harder tmr and forget about it..... HAIZ, i seriously have to manage my time well if i want a fulfilling life. Times when i thought i did really well, i backslide again..... i guess if i dun buck up now, even god can't save me:(

Art finally over soon

2008-04-03T12:25:00.001-07:00

I have successfully done all my preparations to show my art work for tomorrow.. It's kind of stress cause i am one of the lousier few in class.... Oh well i tried my best hopefully my best enough to get at least a B.... Come to my timetable,i feel i am really very useless, can't conc. at all keep getting distracted nitty witty stuff. But hopefully i can survive through this test, it needs more than luck, it needs alot of determination too and i haven had tt in a while. Is there really nothing tt i wanna achieve in life? but oh well now'snot the time to think about tt, guess i have this tall hurdle to cross and i still haven build the foundations LOL anywayz take a look at my art work.... i am quite satisfied with it but dunno what the art teacher would think.......

Damn nice song

2008-04-01T22:08:00.000-07:00

I was busy studying and decided to slack by watching youtube videos.... Den suddenly i came across a damn nice song....OMg meaningful lyrics also enjoy!!!!!

"I Could Not Ask For More"

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for And I could not ask for more

[Chorus]

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have's come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

[Chorus]I could not ask for more than the love you give me'
Coz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more

Really tiring and stressful

2008-04-01T10:40:00.000-07:00

Dear friends and family. sorry if i don't spend time with you guys but my exams are coming near and i am very stressed out.... If i ignore you in msn doesn't mean i don't treat you as a friend it is just tt really too many things to do the past few days..... Speaking of which i can say i was super lucky today... Cause of my procrastination, i did my lab report at the last minute, den when i just completed it it was 530pm and my deadline was 530pm when the lab in EEE block closed.... Thus i have to run all the way from Lee Wee Nam Library through South Spine to the lab.... I reached the lab at around 540 but it was locked.... Thank god i remember how my lab teacher looked like and somehow managed to catch up with him to hand in my paper..... Very lucky or they might not have accepted my paper..... This taught me another lesson on how procrastination sucks... but how many times have I repeated this mistake over and over again i can't count.... but hopefully i could be mature and responsible enough for her...not just make her laugh only:)......

Monday Blues

2008-03-31T11:05:00.000-07:00

Today is a damn tiring day. I plan myself a goal that i would finish my Media in America assignment and lab report by today. I started work afetr maths lessons and seriously i took like almost 5 hours to finish up my MIA assignment and that really pissed me off alot. Now i left lab report due tomorrow should i just leave it for tomorrow or try to complete it today? Maybe i just start a little on it first den continue the next day....... All i can say is... So much to do and so little time... Now my fuel is on and i am ready rock.... Come join rock hard studying group: group leader, Benjamin Lam... members: still on the recruiting side.... OOO anywayz i have a new loner member haha..... come fill in ur membership applications.

Stress is kicking in

2008-03-29T23:09:00.000-07:00

Alot of things to do....but so little time, Seriously i think i procrastinate too much.... HAiz i need a crash course on how to not procrastinate. Now really have 3 projects to hand up by next week. Hopefully i survive this hell week.. And now here is like the 2 American Idol videos i like this season...ENJOY!(Actually i just testing how to use the video haha)

David Archuleta Vid

David Cook

Feeling Nostalgia

2008-03-27T05:33:00.000-07:00

After this bad day i kind of started thinking the days before i entered university. Began to look back at old photos and realised how much everyone has changed in like 4 years..... Can't forget the times when we all had fun. I guess i dunno how to appreciate the fun tt time until it went away and all there is left is nothing but memories. So i shall treasure these memories until i grow old.......all photos are in chronological order as far as i can remember

I feel i was a cute baby

My secondary school friends, we were so young den....

It's been ages since i went sentosa for a tan...

KL trip with jc friends

Prom Night 03S20 guys

My working colleagues... Think i lost contact with all of them le

Army friends, we were young and drunk den....

Before i entered University.... Everyone said i became fat... oh well looks like it LOL

Being Alone

2008-03-26T22:50:00.000-07:00

Many people i have met in my entire walk of life..... They fear being lonely. As in, everything they do, everywhere they go, they must have at least a friend to accompany them. One very good example is eating. I realised most people don't like to eat alone outside in a public place, so normally if they cant find anyone, they would just buyback to eat in their hall.... But for me, i kind of love being alone and eating alone... People keep saying i am anti-social but being the idealists i am(with my friends normally i become more realistic), i like to imagine things and ideas i don't normally share with anyone. It is like a holiday off the real world where everything is so practical and cruel... Anywayz, anyone wants to join my loner's club... Membership is free and if u become a member, an isolated room would be provided to you to enhance ur loneliness..... Limited spaces onli so apply while membership last.....

Photocrazy

2008-03-26T05:43:00.000-07:00

I am super pissed today... THe test i studied so hard for i did kind of bad.,,,... And i feel tt is not my fault..... The lecturer told me tt subject was not coming out so i did not study for it..... Tt's like one of the most sianz diaoz thing la.... Make me feel like i studied for nothing...... But after the lecture, we learnt alot of about camera and stuffs.... Super fun class, we get to play with a damn good Olympus camera, didn't quite get the model no. but it was fun, we took alot of crazy pictures with the mannequin. Fund even went to draw make-up for the mannequin, probably because he had lack of sleep so he became berserk.... After the lesson, went to make my braces and it was uber pain. Eating food is now more like a torture than an enjoyment... 25 more days to D.Day(seriously not looking forward to it.)

SUPER LAME PICS

Feeling Down

2008-03-25T07:24:00.000-07:00

Many people think i am a very crap person.... Their perception of me is just someone who likes to crap and have no depth..... Yeah and i agree i portray myself tt way.... But seriously,who can really understand the turmoil in my heart,the insecurities i have of this screwed up world..... Oh well maybe i feeling abit emo today.... but thinking about it again, how many harsh days can i endure.... how many rejections am i able to endure....what can i do to get accepted for the way i am...... I got so many work to do but i keep pushing them aside and i feel like i am falling to a bottomless pit with a glimpse of light.... but the light keeps fading a little every single day... Alot of people in the past told me not to think so much and just be contended with my life. But i am not someone who is easily contended... I want to do great things but i just lack the motivation and perserverance to do it....... Haiz... Srry just some random blabbering to destress haha

Inspirational Talk

2008-03-24T09:51:00.000-07:00

Today, me and some of my friends were forced to go into some talk about being a financial advisor for the hall canvassing..... The person who was conducting the talk was non other than Adam Khoo... The person who became a millionaire when he reached 26 years old.....He taught us about his experiences and why is it some people are more successful than other people. But one thing of what he said really struck me...... He said those who fail like to give excuses for their own failures to make themselves feel better. I guess i am one of the failures who keeps blaming fate for every unlucky thing that has happened to me(that's y i never really achieved anything great in my life i guess)..... I guess i ought to go out of my comfort zone really soon before the door becomes closed and i just become a civilian bum.... I really hope this is a turning point of my life and 10 years down the road i would be looking back and thinking, so this is where all my success started(I BELIEF I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL LOL!!!!!), after changing my perception of life

Fruitful Sunday

2008-03-23T09:43:00.000-07:00

I am super happy today... It is the first time in 3 months that i felt i study hard.... Sounds abit lame but true... I have been slacking like forever.... Hopefully i can keep up my good work...My next goal is try to stop dota until after my exams(if i really can't stop den i cut down on it tremendously, hopefully).... Argh still alot of work but so little time,think i need a time management programme.....

Boring movie

2008-03-21T23:31:00.000-07:00

Me, gav weiquan and huimin went to watch orphanage yesterday.... It was kind of a very boring non-scary horror movie which had an interesting twist towards the end..... Overall, still boring...... After the movie, Weiquan had to leave and left the 3 of us to eat pastamania and we talk alot old times and how screwed up our lives were now (guys i know Gavin's darkest secret le so u all wanna know can ask me).... Den after that me and gav went my house to study and he showed me his study timetable......and what he has achieved.... Seriously it made me think i am damn slack..... So i decided to also make my own timetable to monitor my progress before it is too late....... I shall hypnotise myself everyday to study though i dread it.....GPA 4.5 wan sui!!!

Act sei only

LOVING JAVA

My Darling

Timetable(not completed though LOL)

ART work completed

2008-03-20T07:37:00.000-07:00

YES!!!! I finally completed tt bloody art assignment....Wow super happy hopefully it is good enough to please tt bloody joon kiat....... Seriously i spent alot of time and effort on it haha..... next up JAVA omg this life in university seriously doesnt get any better and i am waiting for the May hols..... i will slack until i forget what work is......
OMG seriously..... why isnt Kristy out on AI yet...... I think America must be blind to vote for her.... She is only a little good looking withno talent or whatsoever... oh ok i am biased..... but hopefully she would be out next week....Looking forward to it......

Step up

2008-03-19T05:21:00.000-07:00

Wheee.... Finally a day to destress..... I am like finally watching a movie after like ages...... Super cool movie with lots of damn nice moves, makes me wanna move to the beat too. But i think i better not, later people will think i am kind of a psycho or something LOL...... i enjoyed the evening alot thanks guys:).....now i still grooving to Olivia ong while slacking and waiting for AI to start....haha perhaps i shall really retire studying for the night.......

Fruitful day

2008-03-18T09:18:00.000-07:00

Today is the first fruitful day i think i have studied, despite having a bad nose and stuff, i still managed to read like 80 plus pages of JAVA in 2 hours time span..... It was kind of a great achievement for me and hope it doesnt stop there.... Anywayz OLIVIA ONG cd rox LOL......

Slacker's Life

2008-03-17T06:55:00.000-07:00

Today i led a slackers life for a change, i stayed at home all day ponning all my lessons(effectively only one)to rest for the upcoming battle i have to fight.... I literally slept through my JAVA classes and regret it already, if i dun do something soon, i guess it would be over for me. As i don't have particularly knowledgable friends in the JAVA side. I think it would take almost like 2 weeks of continuous reading and practising to understand the subject. And i was told by my friend i got an A+ for my maths test, abit unbelievable too as i tot i screwed it up... It was certainly a morale booster to my studying... OK now back to my bloody JAVA book with 1k page. haiz thinking of it makes my goal of getting 4.5 quite impossible.....

I am gonna be an uncle!!!!

2008-03-16T10:54:00.000-07:00

My cousin who i am damn close with during my childhood is having a baby.... OMG i am gonna be an uncle... Hopefully when his wife gives birth, i will be able to be there to play with the baby everyday.... come to think of it i am seriously getting old le and it is time to do something about my life, perhaps be more responsible(OK i shall start packing up my hostel room soon haha!!!).

School for me now sux, if only i had taken same course as weiquan or gavin den got people inspire me to study hard and not be as slack as now. Haha kind of missing the times when we talk cock and secretly suan other people in our class and rate girls... Gavin always have damn bad taste rating Charlene 10, June 10 omg......... Anywayz have to go back to drawing my bloody art module hopefully i dun da bao tt subject......And i wish i would have a fruitful week ahead(though i keep wishing for it but it doesn't happen.)

Chilling out

2008-03-15T06:28:00.000-07:00

It was really a very busy day as i have to pia for my cyber security assignment.... Very last minute.... And it is my sister birthday celebration and guess what... I totally forgot about it until my mom told me.... So no presents for her by me haha... but i guess she enjoyed herself as much as I did during my 21st birthday..... Come to think of it, it's been a super long time since i went out with my sec school and jc friends, seriously kind of miss them.... Oh well hopefully i can REALLY organise an outing for them when exams are over and not wait for them to organise for me......... And anyone wants to get a diving license please tell me also!!! got one vacancy with a good price...

2008-03-13T12:52:00.000-07:00

Wao i didnt know there were so many people from UOC who blogs now can link many people thanks to Jareth's links haha i realise i "man hen duo pai"

SOS!!!

2008-03-13T05:54:00.001-07:00

Someone please give me art talents to complete my tedious art homework..... Art has never been that tough...... I scream for help but no one comes... argh I seriously hate tt NG joon kiat irritating shit man..... ARGH!!!!! guess it is gonna be a late night today damn..

American Idol Rox

2008-03-12T09:50:00.000-07:00

Definition of cam whore: someone who likes taking pictures and posing for camera glamourously.... This is a session of cam whoring turned wrong. All of unglam pics are revealed... I guess i have to pay a heavy price for posting this type of PICs LOL..... Yah these were pics taken to show people how interesting my blog is woohoo and plus i sacrificed abit of my AI time to take it...

Starting up my camera

SADAKO

Acting Hardwoking onli

Metro Daniel

UNGLAM PICS OF RUIFANG!!!!

AH FANG'S ROOMY

I LOVE ACCESSORIES MAN...

2008-03-11T23:57:00.000-07:00

Today is a fruitful day... I finished studying my DSA tutorials before the the one week recess break. Apparently turning procrastination to motivation help for today only at least. However i still have like one 6 page assignment, art assignments, java assignment and union camp stuffs to do. Alot of stuffs but i geuss i am still be able to cope for now.... Now listening to the OOP lecturer toking and it is useless, i cant get anything to this stupid and stubborn head of mine!!!!! But wednesday is a good day cause today has American Idol and this season seems damn nice cant wait to watch it to destress... STUDY ROX DONT U AGREE?

Tuesday's Blues

2008-03-10T22:59:00.000-07:00

Today was a horrible day, woke up with a bad nose and had to rush to lab for lessons. When i reached the lab i was like WTF!!! i dun understand a s*** the in charge was saying so i spent 2 hours staring at the computer trying to figure out the method but to no avail. Srry to the 2 people i lost my temper on it was due to my bad nose and bad day!! Anywayz now i am slacking waiting for my media in America module and those people who think of taking media PLEASE DON'T TAKE IT.... Just when i finished my 6 page assignment another 6 page assignment was given to me a week later!!!! This is like madness la...... Anywayz oh well life goes on and i have to do it no matter how much i whine on it. Hopefully the second part of they day would be better......

screwed up maths

2008-03-09T21:15:00.000-07:00

ARGH!!!! Damn pissed as i screwed up my maths test.... Seriously not a very good feeling, however looking it at a positive way, hopefully i will work harder on my other subjects to make up for it.... I still aiming to get a 4.5 for my GPA. I cant wait for the holidays, studyinglife is fartoo boring. Hopefully i am able to get the job my roomy introed, 10 bucks per hour i will be rich after working for 2 months.... After having the blog, i just can't wait to update it everyday and think of ways to design it, have to thank the ZHU aka pregnant woman for helping me put in the tagboard and get me started on the blog, anywayz i have to set off for the gym, hopefully today will be fruitful day of studying

FIRST ENTRY

2008-03-09T10:18:00.000-07:00

I am damn slow but i finally got my first blog moving, right before maths test... How crazy am I? However it should be quite fun as i can list down all my memories with my friends,my ups and downs of life and hope in 5 years later, i will look back onmy blog and think back off those memories be it good or bad